All good things...

...must come to an end.

On Monday, I start back at work after eight weeks of maternity leave.  I'd like to say I'm ready, but I'm not.  I even tried to get a couple extra weeks of unpaid time, but it became complicated so I couldn't do it.  Aside from the first two to three weeks of c-section recovery, I really enjoyed all of the extra time I have had with Avery and Logan as a result of my maternity leave.  I feel so fortunate that my company was supportive of my surrogacy journey and that I was able to take advantage of the generous paid leave for recovery.

While I've been off work, my house has stayed clean, laundry kept up, meals cooked and I've had plenty of time to work out.  It has been amazing and a relatively stress-free eight weeks.  Most of you who know me well, know that for me, a clean and organized house is the one thing that can make or break my day.  For Real?  Yes.  Ridiculous?  I know...

I have had a lot of time with my kids that I will always cherish and remember.  Logan is lucky and has been able to stay home with me most days.  I still took him to preschool a day or two each week, but, when he's home, we have so much fun together that I hate having to take him.  During our time together, we have played countless hours of Legos and trains, read the same six books over and over, visited parks, run lots of errands, cooked, had playdates, stuffed animal birthday parties, napped and played at least 50 rounds each of Zingo and Spot It.  He has been such a joy to hang out with.  I'm definitely going to miss our time.

With Avery in school, her time with me has been a little more limited.  I love that I have had the chance to volunteer at her school, eat lunch with her regularly and meet her at the bus stop every day.  After school, it's been nice to sit down with her to talk about her day and help her with homework without being rushed.  We have also enjoyed after school playdates, tons of crafts, raking leaves and beautiful weather for walking/riding scooters up to the park.

Although I know it will be nice to get back into the routine of work, I'm dreading going back.  I told Luke I think going back this time will be harder than when the kids were babies.  When they were babies, they did little more than eat, sleep and snuggle.  Now, they are my little buddies.  We talk, laugh, play games and just have fun.  I'm lucky, they truly are my favorite people to be around.  I will really miss all my extra time with them.

Grateful

Early in the morning on August 31, I gave birth to a perfect baby boy.  He weighed 5 lbs., 13 oz. and had a full head of dark hair.  After my doctor cut the umbilical cord, I heard a healthy cry and Dylan was handed over to his sweet parents.

As many of you know, I was a gestational surrogate.  For me, being a parent was something I always wanted.  As a child, I dreamed about being pregnant and raising children who looked like me.  I never imagined not being able to have a child of my own and am so fortunate that I never had to.  Sadly, infertility is real and I have seen too many of my friends struggle to start a family.  I could help.  I had to help. 

I feel so grateful that my friends entrusted me to be their gestational surrogate.  Seeing them with baby Dylan for the first time was one of the greatest moments of my life.  The love they have for their baby boy is incredible; it made a rough nine-month pregnancy and scary delivery worth every second.  This family will always have a special place in our hearts and our family.  I love the connection we have and look forward to watching this sweet family grow.

I am grateful for my husband, Luke.  Not many men would support their wife’s crazy idea to go through a yearlong process to have another man (and woman’s) baby.  This past year was a huge test for our marriage and our family.  It brought the four of us closer together and taught us all about unconditional love and giving.  I am so proud that we made the journey together.

Finally, I am grateful for my family and friends, modern medicine and my incredible OB-GYN, his nurse and the wonderful nursing staff at Boone Hospital.  My mom, sister and friends really stepped up to help when Luke had to travel at the end of my pregnancy and during my C-section recovery.  The kids and I couldn’t have made it through the past month without all of them.  And my OB-GYN and the amazing nursing staff were so great dealing with this type A lady when I had a placental abruption and Dylan’s delivery turned into an emergency C-section.

When Dylan and his parents left the hospital to head home, I expected I would cry and I did.  I didn’t cry because I wanted Dylan to stay, I cried because this crazy, beautiful journey was over.  I cried because I was overjoyed to see this miracle with his mom and dad.  The biggest gift I could ever give someone was going to his new home to learn, grow and discover his blessed life.  That, my friends, is amazing.

Pre-Kindergarten!

It's hard to believe my baby started Pre-Kindergarten this week.  He was so excited to start in the Sentries class at school.  I know this year will be so amazing for my sweet boy.  He loves learning, school and playing with his friends.  Often, when Luke and I pick him up at the end of the day, we have to wait while he finishes whatever he is playing or working on.  On the way to Logan's first day of Pre-K, I asked him what he wanted to be when he grows up. His response was typical Logan, "Since I'm already a Lego expert and almost a dinosaur expert, I think I'll just be a construction worker and drive an excavator when I grow up." I can't wait to see what the 2015-2016 school year has in store for Logan!

First Grade!

Avery started first grade earlier this week.  When she got her teacher assignment, she was so excited to learn that she has the same teacher she had for summer school!  Her nerves about making new friends got to her for about a week before school started, but she did great when it was time to start school.  After her first day, she rode the bus home and told Luke that first grade is "so much better than kindergarten".  I think it was a successful day.  First grade will be fun and challenging and we are so excited to watch Avery learn and grow this year.

6-Year-Old Interview and Stats

Avery had her 6-year-old well child check this week and she starts First Grade next week; time, please slow down! During her WCC, she was quick to tell her doctor that school is boring and she only likes PE, recess and lunchtime. Fortunately her doctor immediately responded by telling her that she should probably figure out how to like school because she will be going for 12-20 more years. Aside from the school thing, Avery's WCC went really well.  She's right where Dr. Beal wants her to be with all of her milestones, growth, etc.  As expected, Avery is still small.  Recently, instead of meltdowns about her small stature, she embraces it and talks about how being small makes her special.  She is 42 3/4" tall (10-25%), weighs 36.4 pounds (3-10%) and her BMI is 13.9 (14%).

On the kids' birthdays each year, I do the same birthday interview so that they can look back on it to see their changing answers as they get older.

1. What is your favorite color? Red and Black
2. What is your favorite toy? I don't like toys.
3. What is your favorite fruit? Watermelon
4. What is your favorite TV show? Jessie
5. What is your favorite thing to eat for breakfast? Little Muffins
6. What is your favorite outfit? Workout clothes
7. What is your favorite game? Minecraft
8. What is your favorite snack? Watermelon
9. What is your favorite animal? Dog
10. What is your favorite song? Sugar, Maroon 5
11. What is your favorite book? My superhero chapter book
12. Who is your best friend? Addisyn
13. What is your favorite food? Potato Casserole
14. What is your favorite thing to do outside? Play soccer
15. What is your favorite drink? Sprite
16. What is your favorite holiday? My birthday
17. What do you like to take to bed with you at night? Owl and "B" (Blanket)
18. What do you like to do with daddy? Go to Taco Bell
19. What do you like to do with mommy? Go to Chipotle
20. What do you want to be when you grow up? Vet for cats and dogs
21. What do you like to do with Logan? Ride bikes

Happy 6th Birthday, Avery!

Avery-

Today you turn six and you are thrilled! As excited as you are for today, it's a bittersweet day for me. I love watching you grow up, but, as always, it seems to happen so quickly.  Some days, I feel like I blinked and you went from a baby to a six-year-old.

Wow, five was a big year for you.  This past year, you started and finished kindergarten, learned how to ride a two-wheel bike, learned how to swim, lost your first tooth and started to read.

While putting you to bed last night, I asked you your favorite thing that happened while you were five.  In true Avery fashion, you said, "Spending time with my family".  Your response is what I love most about you, sweet girl.  You are kind, caring, thoughtful and sensitive.  You love making people happy. You are shy around new people, but outgoing around your family and friends.

You recently started playing with your American Girl doll and other typical "girl" toys, but still prefer getting dirty and playing outside.  Most days, you wake up, get dressed and immediately ask when you can knock on the neighbors' doors to play.  You are always on the go.

I can't wait to see what six has in store for you, Avery.  I just know it's going to be a great year!

Happy Birthday, Avery!  Mommy and Daddy love you more than you could ever know!

Love,

Mommy

Birthday Celebrating

Logan turned four on Thursday so we had a birthday party for him this past weekend.  Since Logan has a winter birthday and I didn't have the time to put together a cute, "at-home" party, I defaulted to Logan's third choice for his party, Going Bonkers.  (His first choice was to go bowling, but I didn't think the other three, four and five year olds would be as stoked to go bowling as Logan would.)  Going Bonkers is a massive inside jungle gym.  It's full of tons of fun and plenty of germs.

Logan invited friends from his old preschool class as well as his current preschool class, neighborhood friends and family friends.  In all, we had 16 boys and girls.  They seemed to have a blast and were so cute celebrating Logan!

Logan is Four!

Logan-

Today you turn four.  It's crazy how quickly time has passed.  Just last week, I kept teasing you about wanting you to turn one so you would stay little forever.  You giggled and said, "Silly mommy, people can't go backwards, we can only get older."  So young, yet so wise.

At four, you are the source of most of my headaches and even more of my smiles and laughs.  You know how to take me just to my breaking point and then do something cute to make me forget my frustrations.  When you walk into a room, you light it up with your big smile and infectious giggles.

You love to learn.  At four, you have gotten really good at basic math and are working hard to learn to read.  Your teacher says that although you often tell her you are a stinker at home, you are one of her best listeners at school.

Your favorite toys are Legos, books, puzzles and Ninja Turtles.  You love playing with your sister, cul-de-sac friends and school friends.  Your diet is still lacking, but has gotten better.  Sometimes I make a new food and after throwing a massive fit, you finally try the new food, turn to me and say, "I was just teasing, mommy, I love eating xyz."  Ugh.  Cue the headache. :-)

We haven't had your 4 year WCC, but I don't imagine any surprises.  You are still tiny.  You wear 3T jeans, 2T-3T tops and 2T undies.

As I write this, I just looked at the clock; four years ago, my water broke. After this happened, daddy ran around the house frantically trying to get ready to leave while I sat on the toilet telling your daddy that I wanted to wait a couple days.  Fortunately, I didn't have that option and you were quietly born at 4:47 in the morning.

When I put you to bed tonight, (after discussing every construction vehicle known to man) you said, "Don't worry, mommy, I will still love you when I'm four."  So, Happy Birthday, sweet Jack!  I will love you to the moon and back; I will love you forever.

XOXO

Mommy